Welp, this is one of those projects that didn't quite make it to the finish line. So since failure is so fun to talk about, let's do it! :)
If you are new here, this year, I challenged myself to make one piece of clothing a week for an entire year. 52 weeks = 52 new items for my closet. The process was to be documented for my patrons on Patreon (who are AWESOME, by the way) and the finished projects were posted on Instagram.
By week 14, I had run out of steam. I still have a pretty demanding full-time day job, plus I'm loving my afternoons with the boys, so this project definitely went down on the priority list. There was very little inspiration once spring came along (probably because the bulk of my fabric stash is fleece), plus, I'm working on a new project that I have been thinking about for years (more on that later), so I figured it was time to let this one go.
I'm not sure I would call this project a "failure" but it definitely wasn't a success. I was 38 weeks away from my goal; that is not even half way. By the last couple of weeks, the only thing that was keeping me going was the fact that a friend of mine laughed at the fact that I chose 52 weeks. Her lack of support was the one thing in my mind pressuring me to keep at it. Anyone else get an extra bit of motivation from the doubters? That is soooo me.
I will be the first to admit that the "I'll show her"-mentality is the WORST for any creative project. It should never be the sole reason that you stay on a project, especially when you begin to resent your own decision. If it weren't for me holding onto her comment, I probably would have stopped the project much sooner and saved myself a whole lot of unnecessary stress. I'm not blaming her in any way because everybody is entitled to their own opinion. In fact, I'm glad she said it because it helped me realize how much value I still put on others' opinions of me, which taught me how hindering and exhausting it can be. When will you ever learn, Amy?
However, I didn't have my light bulb moment until I watched this "Before You Scroll" video by Jay Shetty. As artists in the digital age, we are still chasing more "likes" even though we vow to stop. We think that we have to constantly hustle to be successful. That's just no way to live, not 100% of the time. I realized this project was taking away time from my boys, other projects that I love more, and frankly, my sanity. If you take anything away from reading this post, let it be this: Only create the things you want to create. For you, not for anyone else.
So I'm putting "52 Weeks of Handmade Clothes" to bed...at least for now. Perhaps one day in the future, if/when I've gone freelance full-time, I will give it another go, but as of today, let us remember this project as "14 Weeks of Handmade Clothes". BOOM - I did it. ;)
Thank you so much for following along and encouraging my ambitious project. HUGE THANKS to my wonderful patrons for helping supply the materials for each week. All your support means the world to me!
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